mx69sx: tell her our plans cass
JerzeysCutie 13: i read...
mx69sx: oh
babiixilluziOnz: www.cassncasey.com
babiixilluziOnz: thatll be us
mx69sx: word
babiixilluziOnz: hey click on that
babiixilluziOnz: see if it is a real site
mx69sx: noipe
mx69sx: its not
JerzeysCutie 13: lol um.. more like... www.cassNcaseyRgay.com
mx69sx: nah
JerzeysCutie 13: :-D
babiixilluziOnz: www.katelinsjealousofus.com
mx69sx: www.katelikeitintheass.com
JerzeysCutie 13: www.FUCKyouBOTH.com
JerzeysCutie 13: www.caseyISgay.com
JerzeysCutie 13: www.CASSshutup.com
mx69sx: www.katesuckblack20inchwang.com
JerzeysCutie 13: hah
JerzeysCutie 13: wow..
babiixilluziOnz: haha
babiixilluziOnz: those are some good sites
mx69sx: yeah
JerzeysCutie 13: uh huh
^ yea check out those websites n add them to favorites lol..

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yea tOo damn lazy tO write Out abOut my day.. sO insertin a email i wrOte tO wilsOn abOut my day.. i`ll put whut he wrOte tO.. he`s @ willy p. university. i miss everybOdy!! =`(

wilson!!
hey hey!! sup? well today wuz like my official 1st day of college since i actually had to go to class. yea i wuz late n wuz so0o afraid that i wouldnt find a parking spot n be late on tha 1st day..but i found a really close parking spot wit like alil less than an hour b4 class so i chilled with brian n his friend mike. 1st class wuz ok.. that gurl i met when i registered classes n thats in my freshman seminar class wuz in there.. shes in my psych class 2morrow so it wuz good 2 kno somebody. there wuz only like 20 of us.. n she made me give a speech already. i see im gonna hate that class. we got out 20 mins early.. so me tha gurl i met her names lori anne found that out 2day..brian..mike.. n his other friend wit a really long face think his name wuz joe or john or bob iono but we all went out 2 lunch @ this all u can eat chinese buffet thing. i wuz still nervous about my next class so i really didnt eat. i havent ate a meal in like 4 days. then brian dropped me back off @ school n his friend that i cant remember his name walked me 2 class so i wouldnt be lost n stuff. OMG i looooooove that class! tha professor is so funny n like kept our attention tha whole time n that class is gonna be fun i can see it already he seems like a really good teacher. he wuz telling us his like life story lol like about his family cutting him out n he doesnt kno why..how he used 2 sing n travel all over n tutored all diff people and been like all over tha world singing n doing shows n recording..n how his vegas showgurl gf cheated on him n how he wuz tha 1st white guy 2 marry a black gurl n he started a trend.. hes like 77 .. hes like im gonna keep working till i drop dead cuz if u retire u just turn into a vegetable. lol.. so yea well u better come home sometime so we chill!! i hung out wit alysa 2day cuz i didnt have ne WHS people in ne of my classes.. i saw pablo n lucia floating thru tha hallway when i wuz going 2 my last class of tha day. ill make sure 2 say hi 2 those people if i ever see them. hah well u sorta check out ur friends.. u did sorta kinda like julie.. iono i check out my guys friends hahah why not?? cuz then from friends u can become friends wit benefits.. which are always good. well maybe not good 4 u since u got danielle.. but 4 me its good lol. have u talked 2 her @ all 2 find out hows things in michigan? yea me n steve had something.. but i think hes back wit his ex that he supposedly broke up wit 4 me.. they went on vacation like 3 weeks ago or something like that n we havent talked since. wuz sorta upset about it but i think im finally over it. theres alotta college guys out there..shouldnt get myself all hung up on one..yet. although a bf would be nice. but i have bad luck in tha love department so i guess ill stick 2 being single 4 now. o man if u can u should get off tha weekend of october 10th n get ur butt home. im turing tha big 1-8 im tryin 2 organize like a weekend long party hahahaha. so far we got drinking n clubbin on fri nite.. gotta find things 2 do 4 tha rest of tha weekend..probably lots n lots of drinking since by then brian wil be 21 so he can buy alcohol or @ least i hope hell buy me alcohol.. i guess as long as he doesnt have 2 pay 4 it he will. lol oh well i guess ive bored u enuff for now ttyl
love always,
Cassandra

"Wilson Jr. Lee" wrote:
09-04-2003

Dear Cassandra,
Hey again. It's me, Jun. Anyways, yeah, I don't think I'm coming home until next week. I feel like staying for my first weekend here. I mean, it's not like I'm out of clothes or anything yet. I've been wearing basically the same thing since last Sunday. It's not bad, I don't smell, I shower once in a while. Man, I'll tell you some stories when I DO get home. I should be there like next week or so, because I have to get some stuff. Classes here have been great so far, I have the exact same schedule as five of the hottest women I've ever seen in my life. Well, if I wanted to be a suck up I guess I should say "but they're not as hot as you are." But I really can't see myself seriously checking out my friends. I dunno, I guess if I really wanted to I could, but yeah- that leads to akwardness. A whole LOT of akwardness. I'm glad you feel comfortable in Kean with all them kids from WHS. Although I'm not into Dan Sharky. I remember that kid. Anyways, I'm not here to judge completely. Pablo is cool, tell him I said hi. If you're not completely repulsed, tell Ryan Appel I said hi. And tell Danielle Petrovey I said hi. And if you meet a girl named Liz Randolf (Or something like that), make friends with her. Be like "Hey! Wilson says hi!" She's pretty cool, but she's ruining Dan's life. I'll try not to go into boring details about my classes. All I can say is, they're fun. Mostly because of the nice ladies. Don't get me wrong, Danielle is still good to go for me and isn't easily replaced by far. Wow, I gotta try and catch my bus. Gotta go back to the hotel, I'm fucking sleepy. Anyways, good luck on your classes! I'll see you like in a week, okay? Later!

Sincerely me,
- Jun Jun

ahahhahahahahahhahhahahahahahahhha shana `nd her cuz whitney ahahhahahahahahahahahhaahahhahahaha that`s great!

i didnt exactly start classes today.. we had this all day orientation thing. i got there at like 10 n tha thing started at 10:30 so i ran over to tha bookstore real quick to see if they had my math book in yet which they dont.. thank god i have it on mondays n wednesday so i got time to get it. i wuz all lost looking for where i sign in n it wuz like a WHS reunion pack.. i saw noelle e., ryan appell, pablo collard, tamas farkus, dave matthew, eric manressa, andi guarin, danny sharkey, andy kaplin, kristy goodwin, danielle p., steve verry, lucia essig i wuz like cool im not alone!! but then after i signed in i found out we had to sit and be wit our freshman seminar class for tha whole day n im like shit i dont kno nebody thats in my class. but danny sharkey ended up being in my class so i chilled around with him all day. we sorta talked last year cuz we had english together n gym. there wuz this gurl lorianne i met when i registed classes n shes in a few of my classes including tha seminar class so i had her to talk to. after sitting in tha theater for like EVER listenin to guest speakers n crap we took a walk in tha rain to go to a place to have lunch. it wuz supposed to be a picnic but its cold n rainy here too. n there wuz so many us of we ended up being crammed into this lil conference room thingie. then after that we walked up to this classroom n had to stay there an hour to do this activity that breaks tha ice in tha class so we talk and get to know each other. me n danny were like hmm yea n just kinda talked to each other. all the gurls are stuck up snobby and tha guys that were in there were interested in our dumber than dirt tour guide person. i did meet this really hot guy chris.. hes kinda quiet.. n this guy friend introduced himself to me n gave me a massage lol. after that we took a walk around campus so she could show us buildings and then we went back to tha theater to watch some diversity program crap. i couldnt wait to get outta there. danny left after tha hour bonding thing so i wuz sorta lost cuz i mean me n lorianna just met didnt really expect her to stick along wit me. i have 2 classes tomorrow english at 1230-150 and reading comprehension somethingorother at 330-450. inbetween those 2 classes brian and his friend mike are gonna chill wit me i think were gonna go get all u can eat chinese buffet at this place n hangout since i have no clue whut to do inbetween classes like that. its not like i can go home or go chill somewhere cuz i dont kno tha area that well. oh well gonna go take a shower since ive been in rain most of tha day. <3 - cassandra

well.. tOday wuz my last day Of summer befOre i start COLLEGE..i gOt this all day OrientatiOn thingie i`m sOrta nervOus.. cuz it ain`t like when u start high schOol ur nervOus but @ least u knO ur gOnna have 1 persOn in a class u`ll knO. me? i wOn`t knO NEBODY!! cuz all my friends gO tO different schOols. never thOught i`d miss high schOol but i dO. i had sO much fun `nd had sO many great friends. i really hOpe we all stay in tOuch thru Out tha year cuz i dOn`t wanna lOse them. ESPECIALLY ALYSA..JULIANNA..WILSON..CHRISTINE..
CRYSTAL...AMPARO...DANNY..COLLEEN..HEATHER... <3 U GUYS!!!! can`t believe we`re all i cOllege damn time flies. it seems like just tha Other day me danny `nd alysa were cuttin chOrus tO get ice cream..`nd fOund Out wendy`s isn`t Open during 2nd blOck... `nd me `nd julianna were sittin there gettin in trOuble fOr passing nOtes tO each Other tha whOle time tO keep each Other frOm gOing insane ... we were sO happy when we passed wit a D lOl. it seems like just tha Other day me wilson `nd julianna were in health class talkin tha teacher Off subject sO we wOuldn`t have tO wOrk `nd fOund Out hOw tO permanately damaged a man`s dick fOr gOod haha.. `nd me `nd alysa sat there `nd listenin tO mrs. d bang away On tha pianO `nd say BAHH everytime 4 secOnds when she messed up.. `nd hOw she played tha same 4 Or 5 warm ups `nd made us buck like chickens lmao. it seems like just tha Other day me julie nicOle heather `nd allisOn chilled tOgether in treble chOir `nd had Our talks abOut everything frOm tha weather tO music tO mOvies.. `nd Of cOurse Our sex cOnversatiOns.. `nd Our AWESOME trip dOwn tO flOrida.. i never had sO much fun in my LIFE .. me `nd julie decided we`re gOnna gO dOwn there this spring break again. it seems like just tha Other day me `nd alysa were wandering aimlessly arOund tha hallways `nd talking tO vending machine guy.. `nd he always give us free almOnd M&M`s..`nd back sOphmOre year in mr. mu`s class where we aLwAyS watched that crOcadile hunter shOw haha... Or cOokin wit mrs.g ((MRS GOGGLES HAHHAHA)) `nd hOw me `nd cassie gOt sexually harrassed by allen `nd were fOrced tO listen tO christina babble away abOut her newest ObsessiOn On sOme guy.. it seems like just tha Other day i wuz @ lunch wit ampy pablO `nd kat `nd kat wOuld read tha articles in cOsmOpOlitan Out lOud tO us `nd we`d talk abOut gettin high tOgether ((that never happened guys wtf!!! lOl)) `nd we let wally read that nOte angel wrOte tO kat abOut tha sex he had wit this guy.. `nd wally thOught a GURL wrOte it haha that wuz great. it seems like just tha Other day me `nd larry were chillin tOgether in chOrus..we gOt real tight that year.. i remember steve running fOr student cOunsil pres `nd in chemistry he`d cOver me in VOTE FOR STEVE stickers `nd drew steve in huge letters all tha way arOund my arm.. that shit tOok like 5 shOwers tO get Off lOl `nd that One time he drew a brian`s jeep cuz he`d always say me n brian wOuld gO Out `nd wrOte "when tha jeeps rOckin' dOn`t cOme knOckin" lmaO that tOok awhile tO get Off tO `nd when it tOok that lOng he wuz cOnvinced that i didn`t take shOwers.. lOl hence tha sOap + water = clean jOke. OMG inside jOkes.. me `nd alysa have so0o0 many Of them.. it take me fOrever tO write all Of them.. we gOt like a whOle encyclOpedia cOllectiOn Of them prObably. UR MOMMAS SO FAT SHE WEARS TIGHT CLOTHES!! haha that will always be funny.. all Of Our crazy names `nd nicknames.. DAISY FOO-EN-TEZ ...
OMISA!!!!!!!!! haha.. all Of thOse crazy stOries we wrOte when we gOt bOred..
cass `nd dumbo 23 billiOn years `nd cOunting.. lOl can`t fOrget SHAKEY!!! `nd ketchup brains.. so so so many jOkes..alysa!!! whut am i gOing tO dO withOut u!!! ='( i`m sO transfering tO rider.. if nOt we`ll marry rich guys `nd drOp Outta cOllege `nd be rich stupid bums lOl. it seems like just tha Other day.. we were bitchin `nd cOmplaining abOut tha crappy play.. thOse sexxxxxxaaaay dresses we wOre..but in tha end it wuz all wOrth it cuz we made cOol new friends `nd it mixed sO many different peOple tOgether that nOrmally wOuldn`t talk tO each Other .. it`s hOw i gOt clOse wit my SEXY BEAST MONICA!!! gOod luck in treble chOir KRYSTEN tOo can`t fOrget my SpEciaL K!! lysse tOo even thO u always INTRUDED lOl jk!! it seems like just tha Other day me danny brian `nd alysa chilled tOgether in gym danny wOuld rape me HE CAN`T RESIST THE SEXY SOCCER ASS WOOO!! lOl `nd hOw when we had that fitness crap inside hOw they wOuld either play jOck jams..hardcOre metal crap.. lady marmalade..Or hOt in herre lOl `nd hOw natalie wOuld just bust Out dancin she wuz crazyy imma miss her!! `nd hOw mr. OB wOuld hit On me `nd tha Other gurls in gOlf hahaha eww!! `nd hOw kOby wOuldn`t care whether we walked Or nOt we`d gO get mcd`s `nd cOme back just tO play vOlleyball. it seems like just tha Other day mike wuz mOoning us while mr. sink had this back turned `nd hOw they lOcked him Out `nd threw all tha bOoks Out Of tha 3rd flOor windOw hahaha.. Or hOw mr. vOlker gave us tha answers tO tha final `nd we all cOpied them dOwn `nd made lil cheat sheets sO we`d all pass tha final lOl.. whO cOuld fOrget mr. warren`s back frOm vacatiOn speeches.. same thing everytime lOl..there`s sO many Other great memOries.. can`t pOssibly put them all dOwn but i`ll NEVER fOrget them WOODBRIDGE HIGH SCHOOL CLASS OF 2OO3 !!! i`ll miss everybOdy `nd all tha great memOries.. but life`s mOving On `nd hOpefully cOllege will be even MORE fun i really hOpe SoOo nervOus.. well i gOtta get up early sO i`m gOnna attempt tO sleep..
«33 xOx cassandra

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a n O t h e r day Of summer gOne.. Only 3 mOre till i start cOllege wOw.. tOday ((well i shOuld say yesterday since it`s technically mOnday)) wuz sOo0o0o0o0o beautiful.. it wuzn`t hOt like it`s been it wuz tha perfect day `nd i hadda wOrk 12-cl.. nOt that i wOuld`ve been up @ a decent time tO be in it if i wuzn`t wOrkin lOl. it wuz sOrta busy sO tha time kinda went fast fOr Once. i gOt in trOuble cuz i gave my friend stacey a discOunt On her strOmbOli.. $2 Off... lOl my manager lOoks `nd is like hmm...nice discOunt cass..dOn`t ever dO that again. OoOpssss..
after i gOt Outta wOrk me `nd alOnsO went tO burger king tO pick up sOme fOod fOr my sis then i drOpped him hOme `nd came hOme. mOm gOt pizza hut fOr me `nd her. nOt really sick Of pizza that much..cuz i dOn`t eat tha pizza @ Our place really. Our sauce is nasty tastin.. Or @ least i think sO.
then i shOwered `nd stuff cuz Of cOurse i smell like pizza frOm wOrk.. brian asked me tO chill sO i actually drOve upp tO his hOuse fOr Once..usually he cOmes dOwn here. Of cOurse i gOtta be hOme by 12 wit this stupid restricted license crap.
yupp..sO here i am. hOme `nd bOred.. a G a i N.. my legs are really sOre iOnO why didn`t dO nething tO make them sOre except walk On tha bOardwalk yesterday @ seaside `nd stand all day @ work which they were sOre when i wOke up. o0o yea yesterday in seaside..
i slept Over alysa`s hOuse fOr like tha 1st time in awhile iOnO if i even slept Over this summer b4 that.. we like didn`t gO tO sleep till like 5 in tha mOrnin. brian came tO her hOuse `nd we chilled Outside `nd talked fOr awhile till her mOm made us cOme in when she wuz leavin @ like 3am she yelled @ us fOr wakin upp tha neighbOrhOod lOl. we went tO tha bank sO alysa wOuld have cash `nd went tO shOprite tO drOp Off pics.. she sTiLL didn`t develOp tha pics frOm tha cOncert we went tO. we saw danny there.. he`s like o0o hOw`s ur hunny steve?? (( HmMm..can we say jealOus)) i tOld him hOw we dOn`t talk @ all nemOre `nd everything `nd he gOt this grin On his face. lOl. i guess he likes me Or wants tO get wit me iOnO he wuz like all Over me @ danny`s grad party `nd kept tryin tO kiss me but i didn`t want tO cuz things were like gOing gOod wit me `nd steve.. yea i THOUGHT they were.. iOnO danny`s iight he` s a sweetie `nd he`s really funny `nd hes cute. but iOnO i`m still stuck On steve. i gOtta get Over this cuz nOthings gOnna happen b/t us. ughh it`s really been gettin me dOwn thO. maybe if i start talkin tO danny mOre i can get Over him. maybe whut i need is tO start talkin tO anOther guy maybe suttin will wOrk Out cuz i dOn`t wanna be single nemOre. it`s weird like it seems like everytime i`m dOwn abOut nOt being in a relatiOnship `nd shit like all i see is cOuples `nd shit it`s depressin...
OK..back tO seaside. sO after seein danny we went `nd gOt wendy`s `nd then went back tO alysa`s hOuse tO get my car...cuz she didn`t wanna drive dOwn there. we stOpped @ my hOuse tO lOok up directiOns Online..cuz we weren`t sure whut exit we hadda get Off @. sO as were leavin it`s gettin really clOudy Out `nd were like Ohh well as lOng as it`s nOt raining let`s just gO cuz when we wOke up it turned Out tO be a really nice day `nd we were pissed that we didn`t stay @ belmar Overnite sO we cOuld gO tO tha beach tha next day. sO we get dOwn there `nd im wearin my fOxy shirt frOm american eagle sO all tha guys @ tha lil game stand things keep callin me fOxy `nd keep tryin tO get me tO play there stupid games. tha One stand where u thrOw tha baseball purpOsely drOpped tha baseball as i wuz walkin by right in frOnt Of me sO i had tO pick it upp.. i wanted tO like kick it in tha wrOng directiOn but i wuz actually nice `nd picked it upp `nd threw it tO him.. shOulda whipped tha ball right @ his balls.. but Once again i wuz nice. we were there like maybe 2 hOurs Or sO `nd it starts POURING `nd tha sky gets real black `nd were like shiiit..we gOtta get Outta here nOw sO then we start searchin fOr tha car cuz we weren`t sure whut street we parked On.. FINALLY we get tO tha car `nd as we were finding it it wuz like raining On `nd Off. like as sOon as we gOt in tha car it started pOuring thunderin `nd lightening. lightening stuck like a few blOcks away frOm us it wuz cOol/scary. it wuz so0o0 hard tO drive in.. i cOuldn`t see shit. i had tha windshield wipers On as fast as they cOuld gO `nd it still wuzn`t gOod enuff. i had tO pull Over it wuz sOoO bad.. `nd i dOn`t have AC sO we were like suffOcating cuz it blOws Out heat `nd u cOuldn`t exactly Open tha windOws when it wuz THAT bad Out. tha streets were all flOoded like i wuz gOing sOoO slOw cuz it wuz sO deep i didn`t wanna fuck up my car. we wanted tO wait fOr it tO die dOwn but were like we gOtta get hOme `nd gOtta get Over that bridge b4 they like clOse it. that hadda be like tha wOrst stOrm i`ve ever driven in.
last nite me `nd my mOm went shOppin. gOt sOme clOthes fOr schOol.. i`m like brOke nOw sO i gOtta bugg my dad fOr mOney sO i can buy sneakers. iOnO whut i want thO..lOokin thru sneaker sites right nOw..nOthing lOoks appealing.. maybe just get anOther pair Of all whites..maybe adidas haven`t had them in fOrever.. Or jOrdan`s iOnO..
well i guess i wrOte enuff nOt that neOne takes their time tO read this.. ttyl
<33 -- CaSsaNdRa -- <33

(I don't know why, what I'm doing what I'm doing)
See, baby I, apologize
For all the things that I've done that I've done
See I've known that I've been a fool for far too long
And baby you have it, I go around to wait, just come back to papa
Please baby, baby won't you stay
If you really love me then why are you leavin me

I can't think, think about this crazy day
I lose sleep just to daydream about you baby
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately
(crazy baby)
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby
(I don't know what to do)
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately
(crazy, crazy, crazy)
I'm going crazy, crazy, (crazy, crazy) when I can touch you
Crazy, crazy (I'm going crazy) when I can hold you
Crazy, crazy, (I'm going crazy) when I can see you again
(Said I'm going crazy)

(Said I'm going crazy)
I've finally realized, that you are my true love
And I had a lot of time to think, and you're all seem to keep thinking,
To keep thinkin of, yeahhh
And now I know I need you each and every day
I can't live without you, so don't run away
Baby you say that you love me, so why'd u leave me, why
(why, why, why, why)

I can't think, think about this crazy day
I lose sleep just to daydream about you baby
(I'm going crazy)
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you lately
(just to think)
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, just to thinkin about you baby
(I'm goin crazy, I'm going crazy)
I'm going crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, thinkin about you lately
I'm going crazy, crazy, but I can't touch you
(I'm going crazy)
Crazy, crazy (crazy, crazy), when I can hold you
Crazy, crazy, when I can see again
(if I can see you, if I can see you if I can see you, if I can see you)
If I can see you, if I can see you again
Then I would go, if I could see you again
I'd go crazy












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wOw i didn`t knOw she kissed christina i missed that One last nite..
.. tha pic everyOne is talkin abOut

...that wuz certainly an interesting Opening tO tha VMA`s..
..alsO interesting..
..beyOnce lOokin nice as always..
.. ashanti wearing almOst nOthing..
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rOckin + white sweatpants `nd a white tank ((my PJs since i ain`t gOing nOwhere))


aLL i HeAr iS rAiN drOps.. faLLiNg On tHa rOoFtOp.. OoH BaBii TeLL mE wHy`D yOu HaVe tO gO..cUz tHiS PaiN i fEeL iT wOn`t gO aWaY..aNd tOday..i`m OffiCiaLLy MiSsiNg yOu.. i thOugHt tHat frOm tHiS hEaRtaChE i cOuLd eScaPe..bUt i frOnTeD lOnG enOuGh tO knOw tHeRe aiN`t nO waY..aNd tOdAy..i`m OfficiaLLy MiSsiNg yOu.. OoOo caN`t nObOdy dO iT LiKe yOu.. SaiD eVeRy LiTtLe tHiNg yOu dO..heY BaBy SaY iT sTaYs On mY MiNd aNd i...i`M oFfiCaLLy miSsiNg yOu


tOday fucking sucked. i am sO pissed/upset rite nOw. as sOon as i gOt up my day sucked. they were dOin mOre cOnstructiOn On main st. sO i cOuldn`t get OntO wOodbridge center drive tO get tO wOrk i had tO turn `nd gO dOwn tO wOodbridge bOwling alley `nd turn arOund there `nd gO tha Other way tO get there sO i ended up being late `nd my manager wuz like " hey JOSE thanks fOr shOwing up On time." jOse is this mexican i wOrk wit that cOmes straight frOm his Other jOb @ i have nO clue where tO sbarrO`s sO he`s aLwAyS late sO she made that cOmment sayin that i`m late like him. nOt my fault they clOsed tha rOad `nd i wuz stuck fOr 15 mins tryin tO beat traffic tO turn arOund `nd get there. sO she had me On tha end register/dining rOom.. i HATE tha end register. i scream my brains Out fOr next custOmer `nd they all stand there ignOrning me. sO i went tO gO take Out tha garbage `nd i`m walkin tOwards tha kitchen `nd i hear riiiiiiiiip.. tha fucking garbage bag ripped `nd garbage goes all Over tha flOor. it wuzn`t busy but tha spOt it happened there were like 7 Or 8 tables wit peOple `nd a few peOple On line.. everyOne stOps whut they`re dOing `nd just STARES `nd a few were like NICE JOB .. i wuz sO fucking embarrased i cOuld feel my face turnin red like i just wanted tO run intO tha back `nd hide Out i`m like fucking A why me. flacO helped me clean it up thO thank gOd. then alil bit after that i made a medium sOda fOr sOmeOne `nd i gO tO pick it up `nd hand it tO them `nd i drOp it `nd it explOdes everywhere. danielle (my manager) wuz like "Ok.. time fOr yOu tO gO Outside `nd cOupOn" i wuz hOping i wOuldn`t like trip walkin Out there Or suttin since it felt like everytime i went tO gO dO suttin sOmething embarrasing wuz gOnna happen. `nd it wuz like everyOne bust cassy`s balls abOut it day cuz they wOuld NOT drOp it luz wuz like "garbage needs tO gO Out careful" `nd like makin all these Other jOkes. i sOrta felt alil better when danielle went tO take Out a bag while i wuz Outside tha stOre handing Out cOupOns `nd a bag ripped On her.. nOt as bad as me.. it happened right by tha garbage thing it didn`t like burst right in tha walkway part like it did tO me. sO yea i had a real fun day @ wOrk... i haven`t had a break all week i`ve been wOrkin everyday since tues `nd they never give me a break. tOday i came straight in `nd didn`t even eat nething i felt dizzy like tha whOle time danielle sent me hOme like a 1/2 hr early tO make up fOr it cuz since i`m nOt 18 i legally have tO take One `nd if i wOrk Over 5 hrs witOut One she cOuld get in trOuble. but neway..steve`s been like ignOring my TMs lately `nd he wuz actually Online tOday fOr Once `nd we talked fOr like 2 secOnds.. he asked abOut bOoks which i already gOt except fOr One.. but then i had tO gO tO wOrk sO that wuz tha end Of that. i wuz really hOping that things wOuld wOrk Out..but Of cOurse.. when i think i fOund suttin gO it dOesn`t wOrk Out STILL wOn`t let me fucking gO Out.. it`s Only like 11.. i`ve went Out later than this. i hate this she hOlds me back frOm everything just let me breathe `nd let me live it pisses me Off sO much cuz im sO gOod cOmpared tO Other kids Out there she dOn`t knO hOw lucky she is.. but still she fucking flips Out `nd grOunds me Over tha sillest things. i hOpe she fuckin thrOws me Out when i turn 18 Or suttin cuz i can`t deal wit this shit nO mOre. like i`m almOst 18 `nd i haven`t lived @ all i haven`t dOne nething. i try sO hard tO dO whut she apprOves Of `nd tO make her happy but it`s NEVER fucking gOod enuff. marissa gets away wit sO much mOre shit than me `nd can dO almOst as much as i`m allOwed tO dO. like marissa did really bad On her last repOrt card she gOt 3 C`s `nd a D `nd my mOm didn`t flip Out abOut it.. `nd i tOld her all semester hOw tha alg 2 teacher i had wuz an idiOt `nd me `nd julianna tried Our hardest `nd gOt extra help `nd did as much as we cOuld tO try tO understand that class `nd i had all A`s except fOr that class i gOt a D+ `nd Of cOurse..as always i gOt bitched Out. like i dOn`t understand why she takes everything Out On me. even when my grandpa wuz dying she always tOok everything Out On me. like i gOt sO many Other things gOing On tOo i`m stressed but i dOn`t flip On her. i never even talk tO her abOut my prOblems nemOre cuz i dOn`t even think she cares but yet when she has a bad day Or needs me fOr nething i`m always there fOr her. i dunnO whutever it`s nOt like neOne cares. nObOdy cares abOut neOne but themselves... musicdrew1987: hey baby I love you much but I have to go right now ttyl and I love you so much I hope you feel better Ok Ok.. i lied One persOn cares abOut me * i lOve yOu tOo andrew*
i`ve bee thinkin abOut my grandpa alOt lately. i dOn`t even have time tO gO visit his grave `nd pay sOme respect. it`s been @ least a mOnth. i stOpped by fOr a few mins after wOrk One time but tha cemetary clOses @ 6 sO i cOuldn`t stay lOng. my mOm gave me a pic Of me `nd him when i wuz like 4 i think it wuz On easter... it wuz One Of my fave pics Of me `nd him she blew it up `nd put it in a frame. everyday when i wake up i always wake up in tha directiOn Of tha pic. like right nOw i`m thinking abOut all tha times we had tOgether.. it`s still sO hard fOr me tO deal wit tha fact that he`s GONE like sOmewhere in my mind it`s like i`m still hOping tO see him when i gO tO my grandma`s Or like One time i actually drOve tO tha hOspital where he wuz befOre he came hOme One last time. <3 i lOve yOu grandpa yOu`ll always be in my heart <3
i`m dOne writing fOr tOday im tOo upset there`s just tOo much runnin thru my head..


wElL i ThOuGhT i cOuLd jUsT GeT OvEr yOu BaBii..bUt i SeE tHaT`s sOmeThiNg i JuSt caN`t dO..fRoM tHa wAy yOu wOuLd hOld mE..tO tha SwEeT tHiNgs yOu tOLd mE..i JuSt cAn`t fiNd a WaY..... tO LeT gO Of yOu


i hOpe theRe aRe bEtTeR dAyS aHeAd cUz LaTeLy eVeRy tHiNgS bEeN dOwn..i duNnO hOw mUch mOrE i CaN TaKe bEfOrE iT OvErWhElMs mE LiFe JuSt gOt Me dOwN tHeRe aiN`t nOtHiNg To sMiLe bOut nO mOrE ain`t nO One sPeCiaL iN my LiFe..wHy caN`t gOd JuSt Let Me bE hApPy??

cUrReNtZ + wEd..o8.27.o3..9:oo pM
sPiNNiN tO + mY NEW sOnG On mY sIte..bUsTa & pHaRreLL -» LiGhT yA aSs On FiRe «3 tHat sOnG!!!!!!!
rOcKiN + bLaCk tAnK tOp `nD bLaCk JeAnZ
mOod + LoNeLy

CaN`t rEmEmBeR wHy wE FeLL a P a R t
FrOm sOmeThiNg tHaT wUz sO mEaNt tO Be...
fOrEvEr wUz tHa PrOmiSe iN OuR hEaRtS
nOw, mOrE aNd mOrE i wOndEr wHeRe yOu aRe...
{(oHh nO mOre)} LoNeLiNeSs aNd HeArTaChE
{(nO mOrE)} cRyiN mYseLf tO sLeEp
{(nO mOre)} wOndEriN abOut tOmOrrOw
wOn`t yOu cOme BaCk tO mE.. cOme BaCk tO me Oh.. oH..Oh...
dO i eVeR crOsS yOuR MiNd aNyTiMe
dO yOu eVeR waKe uP rEaChiNg OuT fOr mE
dO i eVeR cRoSs yOuR MiNd aNyTiMe
i MiSs yOu
~dEdiCaTed~

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had wOrk 12-5.. time went faster than yesterday.. maybe it wuz cuz i wuz like 20 mins late lOl.. but i did stay til 5 unlike yesterday i only stayed till 4. i cOuld`nt wait fOr 5 tO rOll arOund thO cuz tha mexicans were hittin On me like cRaZii tOday i`m like LEAVE ME ALONE!! like i`d ever gO Out wit them.. they all like shOrt `nd 26 `nd gOt kids.yuckkkkkkkkk nOt gOing Out wit ne Of thOse grimey mexicans..
yea sO that`s abOut all i did tOday cuz i`m grOunded sO i can` t gO newhere. gOt wOrk again tOmOrrOw frOm 12-5 again. just fixin it up alil bit `nd changin tha music cuz i`m startin tO get sick Of tha Other sOng.. iight well i`m Out leave them cOmmentz
lOve!!
cassandra xOx

i`m here withOut yOu baby but yOur still On my lOnely mind
i think abOut yOu and I dream abOut yOu all the time
i`m here withOut yOu baby but yOur still with me in my dreams
And tOnight it`s Only yOu and me..

yupp i`ll admit it.. i miss steve. i knO he`s back frOm his vacatiOn wit his ex cuz he said it wuz Only fOr a week..plus i saw his car in tha mall parkin lOt when i wOrked On sunday. i tried TMing him On mOnday..but he never answered. i really liked him.. `nd i still dO `nd all thOse times we chilled i really felt like there wuz suttin special there `nd that we might be tOgether when tha shit wit his ex died dOwn. but it`s been like 2 Or 3 weeks since i`ve seen him `nd we barely talk.. sO i guess it`s time fOr me tO just give up On that. cuz if he DID like me he wOuld`ve called Or sOmething `nd asked tO chill.. althOught i wuz always tha One whO called him Or whutever `nd asked him tO chill. i`m grOunded nOw neway sO it`s nOt like we can chill nOw.
but *sigh* whutever..

last nite wuz alOtta fun. i wuz sittin On tha cOmputer bOred `nd wilsOn IMed me `nd wuz like "whut are u up 2 tOnite" `nd i wuz like "juss being bOred" he wuz chillin wit julianna `nd he asked me tO chill wit them. @ tha same time i wuz talkin tO brian `nd he didn`t have ne plans fOr tha nite sO i invited him tO tag alOng `nd then alysa called sO it ended up being tha 5 Of us. we all met up @ julianna`s hOuse `nd sat On her steps fOr like 15 mins thinkin Of whut tO dO. 1st we gOt ice cream then frOm there we decided tO gO tO alysa`s sO she cOuld drOp Off her car `nd wilsOn cOuld stOp @ his hOuse tO drive his car instead Of his parents then we decided tO gO tO keansburg.. alysa suggested mOvies but nO One really wanted tO gO `nd there wuz nOthing ne Of us really wanted tO see sO we were like yea let`s just gO tO keansburg.. but by tha time we gOt dOwn there they clOsed. just Our luck lOl but julie wuz destined tO gO On tha beach sO we went On their dirty nasty beach `nd chilled then decided tO gO back tO alysa`s `nd watch a mOvie...but her dad gOt sick sO her mOm wuz sleepin On tha sOfa sO then we went tO julianna`s tO watch tha mOvie we watched dOwn tO earth althOugh we`ve all seen it a billiOn times. then tha guys played videO games.. julianna`s dOg sammy kept dry humping wilsOn it wuz hysterical we were like rOlling On tha flOor laughing. we tOok sOme pretty funny pictures. it wuz sO funny sammy wOuld NOT stOp humping wilsOn.. he`d just be layin there talkin tO us `nd sammy wOuld cOme Over lOokin all adOrable `nd wanted tO be petted sO wilsOn wOuld pet him `nd sammy wOuld like lick his arm then BAM befOre yOu knew it he`d jump up `nd just start humping fOr like a minute. he tried humpin me `nd alysa lOl. he liked wilsOn mOre thO i think there wuz like 6 rOunds lOl. wilsOn had his digital camera sO i tOok a few pics Of him getting humped sO when he emails me them i`ll pOst them up. sO then after all that it wuz arOund 1 then brian wuz tOo lazy tO drive alysa hOme sO wilsOn did `nd jOsh (julianna`s Older brO) rented a mOvie `nd gOt One free sO he just picked ne mOvie nOne Of us heard Of it b4 sO we`re like Ok let`s watch it.. it wuz weird `nd funny @ tha same time. like One Of thOse mOvies that are sO stupid yOu can`t help but laugh. but like partway thru we checked tha time `nd it wuz like 4 in tha mOrnin i`m like shiiiiiiit i gOtta get up early fOr wOrk sO i finally rOlled hOme arOund 4:15 my mOm called me like 4 times this mOrnin tryin tO get me up fOr wOrk.. she wuz PiSsEd yea sO nOw i`m grOunded but iOnO hOw lOng.. i hOpe she fOrgets abOut it b4 tha weekend.. i wanna say gOodbye tO my friends that are leavin fOr cOllege..yup well speakin Of gettin up fOr wOrk i shOuld gO `nd get sOme sleep since i didn`t get much last nite.. well.. early this mOrnin..
later
love!!
cassandra xOx